Dear World,
I'm a very affectionate person. Sometimes, I can over express my love for someone. It's just who I am. Maybe, subconsciously I'll think that the amount you love someone equals how much you tell them, or how much you talk to them. So it really doesn't make sense to me when people say that they love me a lot, and then they show their love in a very minuscule amount. It's been the hardest thing for me to learn when I get close to people. They either don't know how, or are incapable or loving me the way I respond to.
There are people that I KNOW, very specifically, love me like a sister. And I know they'd do anything for me, but sometimes, they won't respond to me if I'm trying to get a hold of them, or it'll be a really long time before they try to contact me again, or they'll hang around other people instead of me, and I always take that really hard. I know they never mean it intentionally. They just don't know how to show me affection in a way I'd respond to. So, I learn how to show affection in a way that pleases them.
If that means a conversation every few months to catch up on life, a hug in passing, or watching you love on others then quickly ask me how my day was, then ok. If that's what makes you feel closer to me, then I'll learn how to feel closer to you in that way. Because I love you.
But you know, if you ever feel like sending me an extra text, asking a more personal question, or giving me a hug, I wouldn't argue. In fact, it may fill a longing I've had for a really long time.
In Him,
Maddie Rose
I'm a very affectionate person. Sometimes, I can over express my love for someone. It's just who I am. Maybe, subconsciously I'll think that the amount you love someone equals how much you tell them, or how much you talk to them. So it really doesn't make sense to me when people say that they love me a lot, and then they show their love in a very minuscule amount. It's been the hardest thing for me to learn when I get close to people. They either don't know how, or are incapable or loving me the way I respond to.
There are people that I KNOW, very specifically, love me like a sister. And I know they'd do anything for me, but sometimes, they won't respond to me if I'm trying to get a hold of them, or it'll be a really long time before they try to contact me again, or they'll hang around other people instead of me, and I always take that really hard. I know they never mean it intentionally. They just don't know how to show me affection in a way I'd respond to. So, I learn how to show affection in a way that pleases them.
If that means a conversation every few months to catch up on life, a hug in passing, or watching you love on others then quickly ask me how my day was, then ok. If that's what makes you feel closer to me, then I'll learn how to feel closer to you in that way. Because I love you.
But you know, if you ever feel like sending me an extra text, asking a more personal question, or giving me a hug, I wouldn't argue. In fact, it may fill a longing I've had for a really long time.
In Him,
Maddie Rose
Hey you nice post...I'm a big time feeler too, but not everyone is, nor does everyone respond the way we feel like they should. One of the great challenges of loving others is to do so without expecting anything in return...really hard to do because it goes against our nature. It's not that we give so we can recieve, we just naturally think people are going to respond. But loving, giving and blessing others has it's own rewards, don't ever shrink back from doing those things.
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