Dear World,
Unfortunately, God doesn't always work over-night. It's a process. So, after 3 weeks of trying to hear from Him, and having different people pray with me, I'm slowly being re-opened to Him.
There's been a lot that could be pushing me away from God. I'm so happy to say that my time with Him has persevered through a lot, but like most relationships, there are ups and downs. I didn't push God away, I just simply got too focused on relying on myself, and not Him. And almost at the very beginning of camp, someone showed that to me. I couldn't do it by myself. But now that I knew it, I had to do something about it, and that's where I struggled, because I didn't know what to do. But after expressing this to a couple of close friends, they showed me the only thing I could do was to stop worrying, and start knowing that God had it under control. I hesitated a little at first, but slowly over the last 2 weeks, I'd started giving different things to Him. As I've continued to let it go, I've started to see God show back up in my life. It's still hard, because there is a lot that I need to give up to Him, but I'm feeling more and more at peace in letting Him handle it all.
So yea, that's what's been happening with me spiritually at camp. The mentors had asked me to do a little talk thing at the last forum in front of the parents, but I said no, because I felt like my spiritual time at camp was still growing, and I couldn't think of what I'd say. I'm excited to see how things are going to change during 2nd session when I'm staying overnight.
In Him,
Maddie Rose
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