Dear World,
It's been a while since I've done this. A lot has happened in the past month. Thank God I have this blog. Oh man, I have missed it. :)
There is a lot going on in my life right now. I'm a straight A teenage girl with family, friend, and life issues... but then again, what teenage girl doesn't have those "general" problems. But amongst all those problems, I have 3 to 4 different opinions about myself being made as well as people trying to help me fix what they feel are my problems. I love their help. I love help. But it's miss judged and I'm not getting the right help, but I also have all these false images that I have to change, and fix, and work on getting passed people. There's a lot about my personal self that I need to work on, but it's very stressful to have a couple of teenagers trying to point out my problems and "help me." A lot of times I just want to say, I'm sure you have enough problems of your own to deal with, why don't you work on some of those. But the thing is, I listen to people's judgement's of me. And sometimes I completely listen to them and believe that I actually do have those problems, but then I hear from someone else that they were wrong. And I'm just spinning in circles and am extremely confused.
The only person's judgement that I truly trust is my mom's.
But I have been feeling lately that everything is being focused around fixing my "problems". And I've started convincing myself that I was this absolutely awful person and there was nothing attractive or likable about me... aaaannnndddd, that tends to happen when all your focused on 24/7 is fixing/fine-tuning everything that's wrong with you.
But it's not. Don't believe it. Don't give in to that. Forget it. It's a lie. Stop thinking that. Those are evil thoughts. And you know where they're from? The Devil himself. Do-Not-Play-Into-It!!!!!!! You are a wonderfully, perfect creation of God's. Everything He made was, perfect. God doesn't make junk. You are here for a purpose. We all have our little things that we struggle with. But those do NOT define us.
God loved you so much that out of the millions of people on earth, he intricately crafted and designed you to be exactly the way you are. You're not junk.
Thanking Him because of how He made me,
Maddie Rose
