Dear World,
Today was a particularly difficult day. I often times don't realize how my actions effect other people. I ended up hurting one of the other ELITEs because of it. It got to a point where one of the mentors intervened and made us sit down with her and talk about what was going on. One thing in-particular I hadn't even noticed that I had done, but that was my immature ignorance.
Why does that happen? Why are we (sometimes) unknowingly mean to other people. It can be the cause for sooo much hurt and pain. I was so frustrated with what had happened because I felt like I'd let God down. It, in and of itself, was not crazy and extremely bad. This girl was hurt, yes, but compared to other things, it could have been easily avoided. I'm not sure why I was effected so deeply by this incident though. It wasn't life changing. It was merely a rough patch in a relationship with a friend that I'm not even extremely close to. So... why was it such a big deal? I had started crying when the mentor was talking to the two of us. And I sat by myself for about a half hour, thinking and mulling this incident over in my head. I was close to tears the whole time.
So anyways... I didn't feel like comparing something that happened during the day to how I could have done it better, or how it relates to Christianity. This had been a big part of the day, and it has been on my mind for quite some time. That's basically what I'm using this blog for though. Writing down the big events of the day, good, or bad. Maybe, after a night of thinking things over, and another day at camp, I'll have better thoughts and feelings about what happened.
In Him,
Maddie
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