Lost

Dear World,

I am Lost. I'm spinning in circles, confused by these many different situations, feelings, emotions, circumstances, and trials. I feel as though I'm in a dark room, with words and flashes of past events jumping at me out of the darkness. I'm lost in my thinking and feeling. What I think is not relevant. There is too much. Too much around. Too much to do. To deal with. I'm spinning and spinning... what is all this. I can't even tell anymore. Was that love or judge? Wait or hate? I don't even know anymore. What do I do? Am I supposed to ask that? Where do I go? I'm so confused. There's no one here! HELP!

What is that? I don't know. I'm to confused to tell. Who is that? It's so dark here, but that person is bright. Their shinning. The room is spinning. I can't focus on them. What are they doing? Their picking me up off the ground? What? Their hugging me? Their so warm. I don't remember... why... I was, scared. Was I scared? no. confused? I think. I don't know. I don't want to remember. I just want to stay here. With this person. I feel safe. What did they say? I'm... not sure. Wait, they said it again. "I'll always be here. I always was. But you called out to me, and now you are aware of my presence." I... don't know. How do I respond? Do I respond? Do I just stand here, and let this man keep hugging me? I don't want to let go. "You don't have to let go. I'll always be here." You'll never leave me? Why weren't you here before? "I was here! I always was here! You just didn't know it. And now you do. Which is what makes all the difference..."

"I love you!"

In Him,
Maddie