Dear World,
Yup, you read the title right. Pinched nerves. In my back to be exact. It's difficult to walk, because if the weight it puts on my back. So... here's the story-
I was jumping off the high dive, multiple times with my friend Kyle. He was helping me with back flips, and I was helping him with front flips. The mentors and others who weren't in the water yelled to us for us to do a dive. So I did one. It was ok, but slightly uncomfortable. I decided to do one more, just to get it perfect. This time, my legs flipped back and (according to Kyle) nearly touched the back of my head. It seemed like I was bent in half with my stomach stretched and my back pinched. As soon as my head hit the water I felt a terrible shooting pain in the middle of my back. I could barely swim when I re-surfaced and was nearly drowning.Thankfully, Kyle had been just below watching me go off, so he had me grab his shoulder and swam me to shore, then he helped me walk up to the 'beach' and lie down. One of the mentors, actually, the one i had given the oath of silence the day before, sat by me the entire time and helped me do various things like lift my head to swallow the meds, and sit up for the first time. And the camp medic was there in what seemed like a second was already trying to figure out what was wrong. I was also freakin cold. I think it took about 40 minutes for me to stop shivering completely. I had to lie on my towel, so the get extras to cover me, and the mentors put their jackets on me to. They were so nice! even though i felt like i was breaking in half, and my back was killing me, I was EXTREMELY thankful to all of them.
So ya, time for what I was really gonna write on. So yesterday, me and the dinning hall mentor were in bad moods. Me, because I had a terrible headache from first lunch, and her because she can't stand not eating for too long. (she gets cranky, and grumpy) So today, since we'd both noticed our bad moods yesterday, we made a sorta promise to each other not to let that happen again. But, about half way through the day, I did something really stupid, and it really wasn't that big of deal, but i got like a lot of (negative) attention for it. It was just something small, and they got over it fast, but it brought back a lot of bad memories of experiences where i was just that. The center of attention for doing something extremely stupid. That was always one of the most upsetting things to me. So today, immediately after that happened, I went into the bathroom and cried for about 5 minutes. I didn't want to tell the dining hall mentor how upset I was by it, because she was really trying to have a good, positive day. It didn't really ruin my day, but it kinda put me in an off mood for about an hour.
But, my point for bringing up the whole Good Attitudes thing was because we should always have a good attitude when we're serving the Lord and working for Him. We should actually have a good attitude all the time when we're working, but especially when we're serving and working for God. We speak about God and Jesus, we put our hands up in worship, we WORK for God.. but the thing is, do we do it with a servant's heart? Or do we put on a fake attitude that does not portray who we really are and we do the "Good Christian thing". Gosh, I hate that image. The "Good Christian". It's always hard for me not to act like the Good Christian and actually work for GOD! Work for God because that's what He wants us to do. Not because that's what man says we should do.
Goodness... well, that's all I'm gonna say today. I'm kinda outta it because of the MANY pain killers I've had already. Hopefully tomorrows post will be better.
Hope to get better,
Maddie
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