Dear World,
It feels different being back home. (though I'm not currently home. I'm in Oregon for a short period of time, but I was home for about two weeks before we left.) There are the obvious things that would be different. The temperature (BIG one), scenery, daily schedule, and basically the way of life as a whole is just completely different. One of the big things I find myself missing is just the Washington culture and way of life. It was so inviting to what I enjoy and I miss it very much.
Un-like last year though, I don't miss Sambica in quite the same way that I did. Last summer, I missed my memories, experiences, and the camp itself and always wanted to be back there again. This year I miss the people more. The program I was in allowed me to make such deeper and closer relationships with Elites and mentors. When I left last summer, I continued to talk to maybe 1 or 2 of the mentors, and Elites always SAID that we wanted to stay in contact, but never did. This time, every single mentor wants to stay in contact and talking to Elites is just a regular thing. Doesn't even feel excessive. Just natural. It's one of those things you don't think too much about. Of course we'll talk a lot. I woke up 3 feet away from you everyday for 3 weeks. It would feel weird if communication was limited.
I told one of the current mentors, Sage, (I usually try to call them by their real names after camp is over, but she will always be Sage to me.. :) ) that I was really scared to be forgotten as these last weeks went on. This, I know, is a lie fed to me by Satan, but it's definitely a good one because my biggest fear is getting close to people and having them either forget about me or move on and try to push me away. BUT, one thing Sage is good at is reassuring you of the truth, no matter how hard it is to accept.
I'm so happy for the mentors I have this year. Each one did something different for me, and each one knows me in a little different way. Some know more than others, but they all know different things and I feel so blessed to have so many want to be there for me.
In Him,
Maddie Rose
It feels different being back home. (though I'm not currently home. I'm in Oregon for a short period of time, but I was home for about two weeks before we left.) There are the obvious things that would be different. The temperature (BIG one), scenery, daily schedule, and basically the way of life as a whole is just completely different. One of the big things I find myself missing is just the Washington culture and way of life. It was so inviting to what I enjoy and I miss it very much.
Un-like last year though, I don't miss Sambica in quite the same way that I did. Last summer, I missed my memories, experiences, and the camp itself and always wanted to be back there again. This year I miss the people more. The program I was in allowed me to make such deeper and closer relationships with Elites and mentors. When I left last summer, I continued to talk to maybe 1 or 2 of the mentors, and Elites always SAID that we wanted to stay in contact, but never did. This time, every single mentor wants to stay in contact and talking to Elites is just a regular thing. Doesn't even feel excessive. Just natural. It's one of those things you don't think too much about. Of course we'll talk a lot. I woke up 3 feet away from you everyday for 3 weeks. It would feel weird if communication was limited.
I told one of the current mentors, Sage, (I usually try to call them by their real names after camp is over, but she will always be Sage to me.. :) ) that I was really scared to be forgotten as these last weeks went on. This, I know, is a lie fed to me by Satan, but it's definitely a good one because my biggest fear is getting close to people and having them either forget about me or move on and try to push me away. BUT, one thing Sage is good at is reassuring you of the truth, no matter how hard it is to accept.
I'm so happy for the mentors I have this year. Each one did something different for me, and each one knows me in a little different way. Some know more than others, but they all know different things and I feel so blessed to have so many want to be there for me.
In Him,
Maddie Rose
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